I have kind of given up right now trying to keep up with the once a week updates. However I intended to do as far as into June in making something to post once a week for this year. I managed quite well for challenging me into creating more.
I'm kind of battling with a lot of small things at the same time, which makes it difficult to focus or time manage anything. I hope to do more creations, more details or complex than I have before, but that need more time into making them, which is time stressing if I were to keep up with the once a week updates. So until June arrives I may just make small projects, until I give myself more time to create bigger one. Which may result in updating once a month, like before.
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Was actually thinking of doing some drawings of an old show I used to watch, but I ended up feeling unmotivated and sluggish to even start drawing. As well I managed to cause problem for my back so I barely can do anything right now. Hopefully it goes away faster this time.
Some days you just feel like CREATE everything and then next is like, what the fuck do I do now? And this one is kind of like the I can't create what I wanted, but here is something I at least made.
April is here and it began with a shocker snowfall this week. Haven't felt well enough to get myself doing much since the weather and people around is a bit of everywhere where it shouldn't be.
Been in a bit of a slump since I have so many ideas and yet it's difficult to get them out of my head and onto paper or other material I want to build them in. At the same time I'm overwhelmed that I want to start with all of these ideas at the same time, which I know I might not be able to finish because it end up being too much. Although I just want to showcase my creations I've created, I also want to appear to be or look more professional. But when I look at people how they present their stuff, also being experienced and educated kind of, I end up feeling I cannot reach that point, mainly because it's too much work for me to handle.
I kind of want to be in the level I am now, where you can appear professional by using what you have. Kinda rushing this since I cannot think of interesting good ideas to draw. Mostly because I want to experiment in other mediums right now. And I'm also a bit stuck in the show finished artworks, when I can also show the progress, but it's so much work to do.
Tried painting with watercolor pencils again, and kind of reminded me why I don't like them. It's a bit difficult to get the result you want without ruin the paper. It was an attempt at least.
Been a little too much to do this week so had difficulty to create anything, until now, last second.
This week has been quite mind melting with the ever so hated question; What are your goals (for the future)? Like as if I know, I still struggle with daily basic stuff. Made my first attempt at painting on canvas bag. Not really proud since I feel I can do better, but it's still a nice attempt for being able to try out painting on fabrics. I have had this as a "dream" for a long time since I found out you can hand paint on clothes, so have wanted for a long time but just haven't gotten myself to do it, until now.
Already February and I feel like I haven't done much as I would wish to. Gotten things in the way that I had promised myself to not do due to it being too stressful and that it's not my responsibility to do them. I need to practice to say; fix it yourself. Did manage a last minute painting to cram in today, even though I haven't felt overly motivated to paint, probably because other stuff got in the way. And I also have so many ideas I end up sitting and thinking; what do I start with.
Already one month has soon passed and I have so far managed to draw or paint something once a week. I hope to keep it up, so I can continue to evolve further in my skills like I've dreamed of.
Been a slightly chaotic week with trying to figure things out for someone else. Barely gotten myself to do more creative stuff done since most of my time gone to stressing and fixing other's stuff. Hopefully I can let go of it soon.
To think 2023 already has flown by so fast and it feels like I barely have gotten anything done this year. However I hope to create and to get myself be more productive this coming year. So let's see if I can keep up with a better routine I've created for myself. Kind of stress making a December post. Made the sketch a while back, but decided to colorize it digitally since I feel I might ruin it if I try to color it with the bad pens I have.
Been a stressful month. But I still managed to make a drawing for November.
I still question myself about if I should keep blogging or not, and if I even should put energy into remaking the look of it. Like in one way I want a place to showcase some of my art, that's it. And on another hand it's kind of too much to keep updating on a daily, weekly or even monthly basis since, well we have a life outside social media platforms. |
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